The beauty in success

This is a strange blog post for me to be writing, but I have beat infertility, for now. I am currently 14 weeks pregnant. I didn't think that I would be able to ever post this. It's.....amazing, and scarey all at the same time.

I know how hard it is to hear success stories when you have yet to have one, so here is what I want those of you who are still struggling to know. It's ok to be mad. It's ok to be frustrated and to wonder why it wasn't you. And it is even ok to sulk. But only for a little while. Don't let that anger and frustration rule you. I did when a friend of mine got pregnant, and it made everything worse. In fact, it just made me feel like crap.

Also, I don't expect you to be overly excited for me, but I do want you to take this away from my success..........

There is hope. Infertility can become fertility, and even when it doesn't there is beauty in the acceptance of trails and in adoption. You can have a family. You are not a failure. It was when I finally accepted that it was ok if I couldn't have a child (mostly) that I destressed my life enough to be able to recieve this blessing. I know the last thing you want to hear from someone who has come through this is to just hold on, but that is what you must do. Please always know that there is hope.

This pregnancy has not been without complications thus far, which is why I have waited so long to tell everyone, but I trust my Heavenly Father. I trust that I will have a beautiful, healthy baby. Not because the doctors have told me so, or the tons of ultrasounds have, but because I have faith. Without my faith I would be a giant ball of fear, not to say I don't have my breakdowns, and that fear never gets the best of me. However, I have decided to walk in faith instead of fear, and I hope you will too.

First comes Love, then comes Marriage, then comes a Baby in a baby carriage!

Photos courtesey of Sheri Pulley. Find her on Facebook or at her website!!